Uncertain. Nervous. Excited. Moody. Bloated. Unwilling. Odd. Uncomfortable. Lazy. Happy. Sleepy. Frustrated. Broke. Afraid. Crazy.

Not looking forward to tomorrow D:

Shawty call 911~

Orientation was fucking awesome. Seriously, I swear I’ve never been this high in any orientations that I’ve taken part in. (okay except the band camp in sec 3 which was somewhat like an orientation for the little bandits) But even in the orientation I took part as SL I wasn’t as high as I am today lor!

I wanted to take my camera along but I end up forgetting about it every time. But I got a picture that could totally relate to what happened after all performances were over:

(t’was taken in PROM 09 but this is almost exactly how the hall looked like)

Everyone literally went nuts when the music started blasting with the dry ice smoke and crazy disco lights. We danced until we’re all drenched in sweat, seriously smelly TTM.

In all, orientation is really da bombz and it really got me wanting to be an OGL next year! It was such a pity Connor wasn’t the Best Tribe this orientation BUT WE STILL ROCKED OUR SOCKS OFF! I have to say Connors are really enthusiastic to the max can! All of us screamed like little wolves whenever our tribe was mentioned Ahhhh I love Connors! (L)(L) (especially Connor 6 :p)

(Omg seriously what’s up with my entries?! I keep typing in short sentences.)

Am going to try out for band tomrrow. Okay not try out but maybe sit in with them and get a taste of what it’s like to be in a JC band. Oh damn I’m so shagged right now

I know hell officially starts like, tomorrow.

GOODBYE.

Up!

Orientation for the past two days was awesome. It’s definitely better than MF. The games were fun and the OGLs are really humorous.

Met up with Sinhui for the first day of orientation and as expected, we’re placed in two different OGs. I was quite unprepared because the whole JC thing is just so sudden. However, after a few ice breaking games we started to mix around and got to know each other better and this was when the fun started.

Went to Sentosa today and hell it was fun. Though towards the end of the day I was feeling really terrible (sick actually) but it was still awesome with the really really high OGMs and OGLs. Really enjoyed myself today, and hopefully monday will be just as awesome. 

I am super tired right now. NYJC is awesome but life there will not be as awesome as how I would love to imagine it to be. Just the the thought of studying and tests and results makes me feel so unexcited about school already.

Oh yeah I saw a few MFPS people there! But I doubt they recognise me, haha.

Ok bye I’m very tired.

P.S: I’m trying to rid my bad habit of cursing. It’s not very nice to curse so much in school now that I’m in a totally different environment :c

1,2,3

Not very surprising but for one moment I was quite afraid that I’ll be posted to MJC instead. (NOT THAT IT’S BAD IT’S MY DREAM SCHOOL BUT IT’S TOO FAR) Benedict, NYX, joey and pearlin are going there as well. AWESOME! Make that five people in 4J that’s in NY!

I know I should be asleep by now but I’m just so.. awake. And I slept just now. And I can’t remember what I said to my OGL because I was half asleep when he called. LOL. Okay I’ve got to go now, BYE.

To join band or not to join? That is the question.

Retrace the steps we took on a long summer night

I wasted today. Was supposed to go out with Aishah but I woke up with the eekiest, fuckiest feeling that all women in the world would understand. My turn for that time of the month has arrived. Just when I gained consciousness, the pain got me rolling on the bed groaning from the pain (OI DONT THINK DIRTY BUT I REALLY DON’T KNOW HOW TO DESCRIBE THIS SCENE YAYAYA MY ENGLISH LOUSY)

And hence I spent my whole day sleeping and lying on the bed using the laptop. (but mostly sleeping hahaha) Anyways I saw this group on Facebook about this girl (can’t remember her name) Junko something I think. Reading it makes me wonder why guys don’t have periods. If I’m the creator of mankind I’ll make the guys go through NS AND have periods every month. Just imagine when the time of the month arrives and if they’re unlucky enough to be in army.. HOHOHO.

Anyways this girl got abducted by these four boys who gang raped her, inserted foreign objects into her body (isn’t it obvious where) and EVEN BURNED HER OMG WTF. And the boys were only teenagers at that time. Can you imagine how deranged these teens were? How fucking horny men are? The horror of it is not very surprising though, because in my impression I’ve always thought the men in the older times were more psychotic than the dumb (or rather, too busy with work to be sex-deprived all the time) guys we have now. I’m not saying these people don’t exist anymore; they still do.I’m probably saying this because I live in Singapore which is a pretty safe place to live in, so I won’t understand how it’s like in other countries.

Ok I’m getting off topic here.. but yeah. The experience this girl went through was so horrifying, and I know these things are still happening to innocent girls in this world. But what is the right punishment for these men? Jail term? Caning? Hell, even chopping off their penis won’t even be enough to compensate the girl’s suffering. There are people who say that these culprits should be put through what the girl went through, but others say that it’s the same as what those guys did to the girl. Personally I feel that no matter what punishment is given, such incidents will still take place.

Ugh I hate things like this because there’s just no way out! It’s like a labyrinth.

Sigh.

On a happier note, me, sylvie, tanying and pearlin baked a cake for syafiqah and gave her a surprise on her birthday on Wednesday. Hope you like the banana chocolate cake we baked for you! It was quite fun baking the cake, and it turned out really well despite it being our virgin experience ^_^

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School’s starting soon and I’m really dreading it. I know this time has got to come sooner or later, but I’m just  so used to the carefree life after O’s that I’m really unwilling to let go of my holidays!! Then again, the anticipation of meeting new people, learning new things, and most definitely, wearing the college uniform makes starting school seem like a good thing To be honest, I actually doubted my ability back in primary school and lower secondary days, because I didn’t think I would be able to make it into a JC. Technically I’m not officially accepted into any college but I’m sure I’ll at least be able to go to at least one college I chose right?!

HOHOHO time really flies and it’s going to be 5 soon -_- And tell me how I’m going to survive the morning to night school life?!

Ok bye.

repetition

I know I’m not supposed to be awake at this hour. I know most singaporeans are going to wake up in approx. two and a half hours. I know I need to get some sleep because my eyelids are shutting down already. I know I should go clear my room and get it tidy up before school starts.

Before school starts. Oh my God someone please save me from all this craziness and PLEASE DON’T START SCHOOL NEXT WEEK OMG.

I haven’t truly enjoyed my holidays yet

insignificant

Today I went back to band and I felt so fucking insignificant. It’s bad enough that I don’t know what’s going on in band (not that there’s any need for me to know but I’m just so used to knowing but that’s not the point) but now I must even seek permission to practice. Yala I know I broke the rules, so why can’t you fucking tell me straight in the face? Dude, no thanks for you making small reports behind my back. Ugh this is a stupid entry because it’s wasted on people like you -_-

Anyways I finally understood how foreign school feels to ex-seniors already. Actually it’s very irritating because you’ll have fucked up people who only know how to bitch about you behind your back and you don’t get to do anything. Yala once you’re out of school you’re of no significance to everything there. Great so I think I might as well don’t come back right?!

Ugh why must life be filled with people like these.

Sidetrack a little, I’M NO LONGER WORKING WOOHOOO THANKS TO TAN SHIYUN OMG SHE’S MY SAVIOUR AND FOR THAT I TREATED HER TO A HOT FUDGE SUNDAE. THANK GOD SHE DIDNT ASK FOR A MCFLURRY.

:):)

choices, choices

Let’s hope i’ll get into NY

Immortalised

Yesterday was probably one of the most vexed day I ever had. Not seeing my name on the screen was pretty bad to my health, and despite feeling upset about it, I’m glad that some people improved and managed to be on the list

What I’m very disappointed is that I didn’t get a distinction in physics. WHAT KIND OF SCIENCE STUDENT DO I CALL MYSELF?! Oh my god. I guess many people are good in physics, and I’m terrible at it T-T To think physics was my “better” science all along.. sigh.

However, what’s done cannot be undone. I’m just a little sore that I did not see my name on the screen Aiya whatever lah I can’t do anything to change the outcome already. Now it’s time to make my choice.

/start rant
Life sucks. Says it all.
/end rant

I did relatively well but not well enough in my opinion so stop asking what I got!

Speechless

Could we fix you if you broke?
And is your punchline just a joke?

And i’ll never talk again
Oh boy you left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless, so speechless

I’ll never love again
Oh friend you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless, so speechless

And after all the drinks and bars we’ve been to
Would you give it all up
Could I give it all up for you?

And after all the boys and the girls we’ve been through
Would you give it all up
Could you give it all up?
If I promise boy to you.

Lady Gaga is dah awesome. I prefer her second album than her first because it’s much darker and much more soothing than the first album. Especially ‘Speechless’, which is a song that was written for her dad when he didn’t want go for a heart surgery.

Anyways I’ve been feeling a little nostalgic these days, after going back school, looking at the things I used to do, thinking back about the many disagreements I’ve had with others, and also how it seemed so tough back then but we’ve been through it. It’s odd how we keep blaming ourselves after mistakes were made but now we get this feeling that these mistakes were meant to be made. It’s just like how when things happen it’s actually meant to be like this.

Anyways, what I’m more curious about is the thoughts in Mr Ang’s mind now that he knows our results. Is he happy? Sad? Troubled? Sian? I think it’s sian lo. HAHA. I’m dreading tomorrow not because of the results but the trouble of making my choices again. Those people who know me should know how lazy I am la haha. It’s the PSLE thing all over again (PS: I made my choices back then based on how near the school is. That’s why I picked all the nearby secondary schools) But now that I’m older and (should be) more responsible, I have to base my choices on the things that interests me and not how far the school is. HAHA.

Anyways I’m going off to watch Ouran High School Host Club. Call me an Otaku but I don’t give a shit. That anime is really funny. GOODBYE.

(oddly anberlin’s making me more nervous than usual, when it’s supposed to calm me down)